My Fourplay Review endorsed by Bob James :)

Bob James WebsiteEarlier this year, Hans-Bernd Hülsmann of kindly dedicated a division of his Smooth Jazz Blog to my Fourplay concert review.

Today, I’m pleased and honored to notice that Bob James’s web admins decided to endorse my review of their Munich concert for his own website along with Christian Nordström’s and Lena Semmelroggen’s great photography. I’m incredibly honored! If your interested, here’s my original piece with Lena Semmelroggen’s photos and the version at Bob James’s website.

December 2011


The Power of the Web – 2012 here we come!

I admit to being emotionally… shall we say “on the edge”(?) a lot, yes. But this post is only remotely about that. It’s more about – YOU! Yes you, reading this 🙂 How so? Well… because you follow. You check in on what’s good in wesbound’s world – or what’s not so good sometimes. And then many of you place an uplifting comment or Christmas greetings, often accompanied by a beautiful picture, a story of their own, a little poem sometimes. And I get to see things differently again, but more importantly: You tell me that you’re there and that you care! That is amazing! It’s the best thing that can come from this interconnected world we live in, if you asked me! It’s actually really awesome and before we say farewell to 2011, I meant to tell you all that I’m really really grateful for all the support I’ve been seeing in those past four years! Thank you from the bottom of my heart!

And although these are not easy times we live in and although we may face one or the other even greater challenge than we saw in 2011, I think with this power of reaching out to practically everybody with a computer or mobile device and an internet connection, the world has become a place that is very different from any other time in the previous history of mankind! Not only do we get to share our lives with loved ones and friends, we can also take action! People have realized that with this level of networking, they can make things happen – and quickly so!

My hope and wish for 2012 is that the changes we need to go through will remain as peaceful and non-violent as possible. I’m concerned about some footage we get exposed to from around the world, with people giving their lives to the good cause in many places. I can only hope that those in power will realize that no degree of bloodshed is going to keep bad ideas in place. History shows us that any cause for more humanity always prevailed – at horrific expense sometimes, but it prevailed. I strongly wish for those in power to be able to do the math. And that math goes: 99% is a far larger number than 1%.

To 2012, to the power of the web, to being and staying connected and – united. Happy New Year and Thank you!

wesbound, December 2011

occupy la

2008 – 2011

broken guitarI realize I kept sending mixed messages on my Facebook wall. Many will have concluded from those that I’m struggling. But the struggle isn’t only the day to day struggle we all face. It’s a bit more complicated in my case. I had to wrestle with a number of adverse conditions for all my life, almost from birth until today. What’s worse: For the larger part of my adult life – actually until about 7 years ago – I never exactly knew, what those conditions were and how to keep them in check. Eversince I do – or let’s say: Have a better picture of what they are – I’ve been able to address some longstanding issues and do a little bit about them. The bottomline though is: I am born with a totally overcharged, out of whack nervous system coming from early on traumatization and even the tiniest of disturbances can trigger a panic attack lasting from a few minutes to several hours. Medication doesn’t work, as the side effects proved to be near-fatal in several cases. And there is more, like e.g allergies, food-interolances that make eating sort of a Ruassian Roulette kinda game for me, several psychological issues as a result of it all etc. etc. I suffered a career burn-out in 2007 and became 100% disabled in the aftermath. I collect meager retirement payments that leave me with about 200$ per month at my disposal (for food, electricity, communications, transportation).
The system here is designed in a way that there is no straight way out of this anymore and I’m better off accepting things for what they are and learning to live with those severe limitations that often feel like jail terms. It breaks my heart to arrive at this conclusion, but on the other hand the level of adversity is simply too intense to overcome. Trust me, I’ve been fiercely trying for all of my life with (literally) gritted teeth and clenched fists, in particular during those past 7 years when I learnt of what’s been agonizing me for most of my life. However, with everything I do and no matter how well I keep my own issues in check, they always add up to all the challenges that we all face and that are particularly present in the music arena. And let’s just say, those latter challenges aren’t exactly a walk in the park, either, as I’ve tried to describe here. It’s simply too much to handle at once. Ask anyone with a physical or other challenge of a different nature and they are likely to tell you similar things, as our societies aren’t built on empathy, but greed and making a profit. There is not much room for those not constantly performing at 200% and the way things stand, many are simply left to die in the streets, as Brian O’Neal’s work with his DO Foundation shows you.

Maybe I can muster up some courage again in 2012 and continue to write, record and publish a track here and there. Maybe. I am going to move to a new, smaller, but hopefully even quieter place by the end of January and after having settled in, I must devote a lot of thinking and time to finding a better rhythm with what’s left of my life. There will have to be even more soulsearching, meditation, photography walks, bike rides, in short: Healing. I thought music could take care of a lot of that healing, but the recent little Christmas gig in my village couldn’t have possibly reminded me any more impressively of where my limitations are, as the stress level there – which is a normal thing, b.t.w. – was something of a personal 9/11 to me (those of you, who actually lost people in those tragic events may please forgive me for using this analogy. I don’t mean to be cruel or utterly insensitive, but feel pressed to highlight the outcomes of even such comparably insignificant little encounters and events).

If and whenever there is new music or anything else noteworthy along the lines of the music business, you’re going to find it here and here.

Thanks again for all your kindness, support and encouragement. We’ll see how it goes – or not.
Happy 2012, everybody!

wesbound, December 26th, 2011

Incognito Guitars: Tony Remy, Bluey: Music

Incognito Guitars: Tony Remy, Bluey: Music.

Electronic grooves tinged with Jazzy and funky guitars by Tony Remy & Bluey, excellent production.

Performing in my Neighborhood

I’m looking forward to Erik’s traditional early x-mas session, this time at Plonner’s/Remise in my village Oberpfaffenhofen. I’ll be joined by singer Janina Reigber for some Adele-covers. Since I pulled the plug on my own original music in the Smooth/Contemporary Jazz genre – at least for now and probably for an extended period of time – I am looking forward to actually playing music with real people and in front of real people again! While I don’t intend to discredit my wonderful online friends and fans, who have been great supporters throughout, I noticed that – despite the unexpected attention I received by music lovers, radio presenters and fellow artists alike – something was missing. And I now think what was or is missing is the human element: The wonderful magic that comes about when playing with musicians and in front of people. I have been missing that for some 25 years now – and badly so! At the same time, I now need this experience to be of a somewhat personal nature, something that involves and touches upon me as a person, as well. The days of performing whatever the audience’s requests are over for good! I don’t think I ever want to play only for making money off of it, no Ma’am! So…. this is sort of like going back to where it all started: In small, local venues, with familiar faces on and off stage and a very “homey” feel to the entire experience. And I think, I’m going to like this again and that this is as it should be.

Merry Holiday Season, everybody!

wesbound, December 2011